Not Guilty!!

So today, I got papers back from one of my classes and on one of them, she said that I plagiarized! I didn't. The only reason I can think of that she would think that I did was either that I used a description that didn't fit right, or that I didn't sight the Bible or the footnotes in the book that the class was ordered to have for the beginning of the class. I mean, WHAT THE HELL?! Then she gave me an "F" on the second paper she gave me and the only explanation she gave me was "Sparknotes"... what the fuck are sparknotes when she barely wrote anything on my paper! 

All day, while I was at work, I remembered what she said about what she did to people she accuses of plagiarizing. That they failed her course or she reported them to the school board or whatever they call it at OC. I worried myself sick because I need that class and I would have to take it over with her again. If I do have to, well, I plan on taking it from another school online so I don't have to deal with her.

I mean  GODDAMMIT!!! I don't need this today!

Then I had my employee evaluation with my boss and her boss. Apparently, I did a great job this year, but there's no way that I could be promoted because all the positions are already full. I understand that. Then they said that the job that I have was originally meant for high school girls 15-16 years old. (My thoughts: am I being fired?) They told me that it was their way to give kids the opportunity to get a positive job experience. The boss boss kept telling me that he's happy to write me a letter of recommendation. (Inner monologue: Is this a hint hint?) Then they said that it would be seen as a good thing on my resume if I had other experiences that would help with my Library Science background.  (Inner monologue: AM I BEING FIRED/LAID OFF?!?!?!)

"We aren't firing you, Katie. We don't want you to feel like we're trying to get rid of you..."

Well, I've come to the conclusion that I probably will have another job by the summer. I'm thinking either Bed, Bath & Beyond or CVS. We'll see.

Nearing the end...

So there is only a few more weeks till my birthday, then after that are finals. I believe I have a week off before I had my ILT [Intensive Learning Term] which is just 3 weeks long. Then a break before I have a summer class that starts at the beginning of June and ends just after the fourth of July. Sigh. I can't wait for classes to end so I can take all the time I want just doing what I want.

I'm tired of doing all this writing for other people that I don't really have time to write for me. I miss it. I have plenty of ideas in my head that I want to write down and hope to elaborate on later, but once i sit in front of my computer, I'm consumed by all the writing homework that I have to do that I either forget about what I was going to do, or I just don't have the energy to do it. It makes me feel bad for those who I send my writing too. They have been great, the best, but I haven't sent them anything in a very long time.

But there's one good thing that comes out of all this homework, I don't have time to do some online shopping. lol. Since my cousin, Elise, got me hooked on Half.com, I seem to be shopping there all the time, especially around the holidays. Now I know where I'm going to get my families gifts if it's something that is available there. Out of all the stuff that I own, movie wise, I've bought 80%-90% from Half.com. Pathetic, don't you think?

The other sight that I'm addicted on for online shopping is Barnes & Noble. Not that I own the Nook, I've been looking up books to buy and pre-order (pre-ordering in SOOOO much easier now). Since I've first had the Nook in December until now, I've bought 30 some books. When I was buying them in paperbacks/hardcovers, I'd be lucky to get one or two every two months. Yeah, that's a huge increase. But surprising enough, I have stayed as a comfortable steady money level since I don't spend money on gas every other week or so, it's rather every 3 weeks now since I don't have classes on Mondays of Fridays.

That's going to change next semester when I have classes every day. Yippy.

Why can't it be July yet?

First Crack At Poetry

So I was sitting in class today, and suddenly I was hit with the first two lines of my poem. I've never written a poem before, so this is a whole knew thing. If you hate it, tell me why. If you like it, tell me why. I want to know because I'm going to be taking a poetry writing class this summer so I need to know what to work on.

There are two poems that I am posting. The second one was just from an image I had in my mind while I as sitting in that same class as when I wrote the other one. I don't have a name for the second one yet, so I'll but a divide between the two so you'll know.

My Friends

I am surrounded by a sea of faces,

Yet none of them know me.

I know them, was once friends with them,

Yet none of them recognize me.

I remember laughing, crying, spending time with them,

Yet they don't seem to remember.

I watch us break apart, them pulling away,

Yet I try to swim out to them.

Why must we part? Was it something I did?

Only I know the answer.

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[Unnamed]

Green eyes,

Emerald eyes,

Sparkling in the sun.

Olive skin,

Soft skin,

Caressed by her dress.

Fiery hair,

Long hair,

Blowing in the wind.

Small feet,

Dainty feet,

Hugged the building's edge.

Small smile,

Sinister smile,

Spreading over her face as she leaned forward.

Rose colored,

Slowly spreading,

The last pedal fell.

So? Thoughts?